Horror of Mysterious and Undiscovered Realities

I don’t know why? I am really confused. I don’t know why I have fear of unknown realities of life. That is the feeling of hell. I have been looking for the answers and still I am looking for the right answer. Do I have any reason to fear? Did I commit blunder that nobody has committed? No! I did nothing that I should fear. I just followed their path, the path which deceived me badly. 

 

It is just a twist. Just like an interlocking mat. I don’t know how the journey will be but I am optimistic that it will give me a lesson to be more confident of what the unknown will be. We cannot say with who we are destined to be for our whole life. But each one of us deserves someone who can protect, support and guide us throughout. Let us not hurry about it!

World AIDS Day

HIV (human immunodeficiency virus) is a virus that may cause an infection, but AIDS (acquired immunodeficiency syndrome) is a condition or a syndrome. Being infected with HIV can lead to the development of AIDS, which stands for acquired immunodeficiency syndrome. AIDS develops when HIV has caused serious damage to the immune system. According to research, the earliest case of HIV was found out in a blood sample of a man from the Democratic Republic of Congo. It’s said that the virus spread from chimpanzees to humans sometime before 1931, most likely during “bush meat trading.
 

The first case of HIV in Bhutan was detected in 1993 through routine medical screening. So far 460 people were detected through various medical screening.  It’s a very huge number and we have to cautious about it. Every year on December 1^st, “World AIDS Day” was observed across the country to raise awareness and show support for people living with HIV. On this very important day, I would humbly take the privilege to pray and wish for peaceful journey for those people who are living with HIV and to those lives which are lost due this incurable disease. 

Let us be informed and aware about it! It’s not only them; we must be also living with that virus. We can never say unless we are checked in the hospital. So let us be responsible to check ourselves and prevent others from getting it. 

Reminiscences of 2011

Beginning of the year was excellent with fresh resolutions and hope but luck didn’t favor me. It was murky and haunting days that I can’t still forget it. Misfortune occurred with the gift of unimagined illness. The pain of being with that unexpected gift was horrendous. 

On 2/07/2011, I woke up at 4:00am to help my elder sister to grind maize. We finished by 5:00am and I went back to sleep again. When I reached back to my bed, I had a sudden stomach pain. I thought it would be nothing serious and severe. So I forced myself to sleep but I couldn’t sleep because the pain was harder. I controlled but couldn’t and I started to sob.

My mother and sister got panic and they started to offer Serkam & duezay and look for locally available medicines, they called Gomchen to offer Rimdro, and they called local doctors (Drungtsho). They did all possible way but the pain was harder. So finally they have decide to take to nearby BHU the next day. So I was taken to the BHU on locally made stretcher by two brother in-laws carrying on their shoulder. 

When I reached to BHU, there was compassionate and very soft Health Assistance who was ready to help in each possible way, he checked my blood pressure, heart beat and then injected with one painkiller. Later he called ambulance to refer to Samdrup Jongkhar Hospital. Thank God! There was farm rod till Tshanchilo, otherwise I wouldn’t have survived. Thank you HA sir, you saved my life, you are always in my heart. 

The journey from Tshangchilo to Samdrup Jongkhar was really terrible. I had double pain with motion sickness, bumpy road and turnings. It was unimaginable; I had been to hell before I was really death. On top of that it was very painful for me to see my old mother suffering from motion sickness in that ambulance, crying and holding my hand. I can’t imagine the pain that my mother had looking at me. It was really heart breaking, really I can’t imagine, still it is heart breaking to recollect those horrible times. With many difficulties, we reached to Samdrup Jongkhar hospital.

After reaching there, I was diagnosed with gastric ulcer and treated with gastric ulcer medicine. I was given with medicine and asked to take for one week. That has rather worsen my pain. So finally my younger sister has decided to take me to India (Parkhey Hospital) for check up. From there I was diagnosed with Appendicities. How pathetic? Should I curse those workers? 

Once again I went back to S/J hospital and once aging they did ultrasound to confirm the disease. After that, they confirmed that it was Appendicities. Indeed very hopeless. From there I was further referred to Mongar Regional Hospital. Once again I was forced to take unimaginable journey.  

After reaching Mongar hospital, the treatment was unbearable, I can’t really imagine the pain, it was really horrible and I cried many times but was useless. Everyone was helpless. I was admitted there for 3weeks and I again stayed for another one week in S/J hospital. 

I missed my class more than a month and I failed to do my project which I was supposed to submit right after midterm break. I failed to attend my regular class, my health was not good and I couldn’t concentrate on my studies. So that’s how failed in my life. I failed badly. That unimagined gift of life has spoiled everything and shattered my dream. 

  NOTE# thanks to all those beautiful soul who saved me. Thank you so much my dear parents, friends and doctors. You all played critical role in that critical situation.

Little Prayers And Wishes

Dear class 12 and 10 students,

Examination is nothing new to you all. You have been doing that since class PP to till now. So there is nothing that you have to fear and panic about it. I bet you there will no question asked out of syllabus. So worry less and face the challenge more confidently because your confidence will help you to choose more precise words and correct sentences. 

I want to pray and wish you all though my prayers and wishes may not make much difference but that I believe that “God listen to each and every single prayer that we pray to him”. So I being a part of you all, I take care of each and every one of you and I pray to Kencho Sum to bless you all with good health and success. So GOOD LUCK to all the students of classes 10 & 12 and especially to science students, today you are going to do your physic practical exam, so don’t panic, be clam and be confident.  If you panic, I am sure you are going to mess up your practical exam. Take things lightly, It’s not your final battle thought it is very important for you. 

I am very sorry to Arts students, you have already done with your practical exam but then I wish you all GOOD LUCK in rest of your paper. 

“The best way to motivate yourself is to stop stressing about what’ll happen when things go wrong and start thinking about how awesome life will be when they go right” –Unknown. Good luck to all the students!

With Love….

Lost Thoughts

It was exactly 7:40pm. The car was missing, no light I can see in the room. I walked in silence crossing my fingers. When I reached there a big lock hanging on the door welcomed me. I talked to myself; I checked my key in my back and it wasn’t there. I was helpless; I know none of my neighbor. So without choice, I decided to stay near the street light reading my favorite book. There was no one, not even one at outside. It was complete silent.
 

I was little scared, but then I pretended to be strong under the deep blue sky and bright supper moon. I was lost under the brightness of supper moon and street light which added up more brightness. There was chilly breeze blowing gently on my little check and I could feel and sense the winter which has already entered in my world. 

When I looked into my watch, it was already 9:30pm. I wondered, what am I doing here? When I looked into my book, I was already on page 370, it was about to finish, and I don’t remember how I have turned the pages. I took off from there and I started to walk few steps. As soon as I took off that place, dogs started to bark very furiously. I looked around, if there is something dangerous. Yes, there was a group of boys coming towards me. 

I was numb and I couldn’t do anything.

To Those Women Who Are Betrayed

I know the pain of betrayal but let us not drain out by that pain. Let us take it as an energizer to develop ourselves better and stronger. Why to be behind the bars and in murky room shedding tears for unwanted and undeserving person. If they deserve us they will never let us down and make us feel low. They don’t deserve us, so let us be proud of that. 

 

“A strong woman knows she has strength enough for the journey, but a woman of strength knows it is in the journey where she will become strong”!- unknown. Let us not only be strong woman but be a woman of strength so that we can change the world on the way of our journey. We never know what kind of road we will come across, we can never say what kind of people we will meet and what kind of destination we will have. Don’t worry about the obstacles you come across because they are the mixture of our journey, a journey of wonder, fun, craze and adventure. 

“A woman is like a tea bag – you never know how strong she is until she gets in hot water.” – Eleanor Roosevelt. When they leave us behind, let us accept it happily because they are giving us another great opportunity to be in the world of another better person and to discover our own world once again. 

“When we do the best we can, we never know what miracle is wrought in our life, or in the life of another.” – Helen Keller. So don’t regret about what we have done so far because I believe that they are the experiences which are helping us to be what we are at present. Don’t wait for the perfect day, make the day perfect and keep on doing what you have been doing because we never know what will happen next. 

So don’t be a women that needs a man………….rather be a women a man needs!????????